Post by Ludwig Beilschmidt on Apr 22, 2012 15:09:25 GMT -5
Conceal your deepest worries
Confine your thoughts
Inside the walls you built
Of damaged pride
The light in your eyes failing
Like you're adrift
Like night pretending to be day
These storms subside
Though the past the unwanted memories
Are holding onto you
All the power in the universe
Conspires to carry you
Truth you find through your adversities
Will defend you
As your powers and all your energies
Conspire to carry you
The adversary of your soul
The blackest thoughts
That try to poison you
These storms subside
Lay down your greatest burden
Relinquish that which has control of you
And let yourself through
Though the past the unwanted memories
Are holding onto you
All the power in the universe
Conspires to carry you
Truth you find through your adversities
Will defend you
As your powers and all your energies
Conspire to carry you
Though it seems the past
And future look the same
Suffice to say that you're still here
Though the past the unwanted memories
Are holding onto you
All the power in the universe
Conspires to carry you
Truth you find through your adversities
Will defend you
As your powers and all your energies
Conspire to carry you.
- Carry You || VNV Nation
Confine your thoughts
Inside the walls you built
Of damaged pride
The light in your eyes failing
Like you're adrift
Like night pretending to be day
These storms subside
Though the past the unwanted memories
Are holding onto you
All the power in the universe
Conspires to carry you
Truth you find through your adversities
Will defend you
As your powers and all your energies
Conspire to carry you
The adversary of your soul
The blackest thoughts
That try to poison you
These storms subside
Lay down your greatest burden
Relinquish that which has control of you
And let yourself through
Though the past the unwanted memories
Are holding onto you
All the power in the universe
Conspires to carry you
Truth you find through your adversities
Will defend you
As your powers and all your energies
Conspire to carry you
Though it seems the past
And future look the same
Suffice to say that you're still here
Though the past the unwanted memories
Are holding onto you
All the power in the universe
Conspires to carry you
Truth you find through your adversities
Will defend you
As your powers and all your energies
Conspire to carry you.
- Carry You || VNV Nation
Name: Ludwig Beilschmidt.
Country: Germany.
Date of birth: October 3rd.
Age: 19.
Likes: His dogs, beer, baking, keeping things in order, reading, exercising.
Dislikes: Mess, sleeping in, laziness, idiots.
Diagnosis: Avoidant personality disorder. OCD.
Voluntary/Involuntary hospitalisation: Involuntary.
Time hospitalised: 4 months.
Sample journal:
The staff here are obviously incapable of caring for their paitents: my room was not properly cleaned today. I complained that if the staff were not fit for their assigned duty, they should just let me deal with it myself. I think I would prefer that anyway. At least I know the job is being done right.
Today I stayed in my room again and read a book. I think I've read that particular one before though.
Tomorrow I think I might rearrange my clothing drawers again.
Sample RP:
Yet another unproductive day had passed. He seemed to do nothing except go to therapy sessions, leave his room for meals and read the from the dismally small collection the hospital provided. The therapy sessions were a mixture between vague annoyance and just something to pass the time. Normally, he would indulge himself in work, exercising or cleaning. Since being admitted to this damn place, he obviously didn't have any work to do, his excerise regime was now very limited and they wouldn't let him have proper cleaning products. Honestly, did they think he was going to try and swallow bleach or something? There was nothing wrong with wanted to live in a clean, healthy enviroment.
It was time for lights out. Although it signalled that another day was over and he was poitentially one step further to freedom again, combined with the condescending manner some of the nurses talked to him with, it made him feel like a child with an enforced bedtime. With a sigh, he placed his book on the bedside table, lay down on his side and eventually dirfted off into an uneasy sleep.
